Trust // verb
1. belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of.
Psalm 9:10 says "Those who know you trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you." Those who forsake, those who seek and rest in the Lord, trust in Him. When you put your mind on those of the earth, this trust is gone. When I went to Link Year, our president would always say "lack of trust in God is temporary atheism." I remember laughing at this statement, but it wasn't until a few weeks ago that I really understood it.
Honesty and vulnerability is something I always want to carry out through this blog. If I am not being real, what is the point of my writing? These past few months have been extremely hard for me. I have been in a "rut" spiritually, and have found myself the center of my life, rather than God. It has been draining, and the worst part is that I knew why, but just didn't want to put the effort in to change it. But, over Christmas break, The Lord really grabbed hold of my heart and had me re-align my focus on Him.
My church in Fayetteville took a group to Passion Conference in Atlanta, Georgia, and I was lucky enough to join them! Prior to the trip, I had this gut feeling that the conference would wreck me, in a beautiful way. I felt like God was giving me a word for this next season of my life: trust. And as we attended each session, He confirmed that word in me. Trust....He was calling me to trust Him....with EVERYTHING.
What a scary concept, right? It terrified me, and still scares me sometimes. But if I really wanted God's path for my life, I would have to learn to let go and let Him take over, even in the darkest areas of my heart. This is still a process for me, but I already see little fruits growing! Ya'll, if there are areas in your heart that you are fearful of, it could be the future career, maybe scared of certain classes in college, or scared you may never get married. Those are the biggest areas that He is asking you to trust Him with. It's those little fears, little anxieties, that can grow into big idols or objects that cripple you if you don't learn to let go of them. God has a plan for your life, but you have to choose to let Him guide that path. You have to TRUST Him with every aspect of your life....it is so worth it!